More JU

"If we keep utterly still, we can suffer no wear and tear, and will never die."

Do I want to stay still?

I do, but only when I've moved enough to reach the point where I've accomplished the life I want. A tiny house in the woods with some. And we'll dance in a bleary-eyed state of madness, fueled by everything we use to expand our minds. We'll go barefoot and we will be the only ones around for miles. A mattress on the floor, a perpetually unmade bed surrounded by stacks of books leaning this way or that. We'll watch the dust float through the beams of light in our kitchen, and we will know that we are that dust and we will one day be drifting through your dining room or resting in your sheets. We'll fill our days desperately searching for something to believe in, but in our nights we will be looking at every star that there is to see. And in these nights we'll know what we believe in and we'll know we won't find it wherever we look.

We could stay still and be happy forever.

"The best we can do is to try to do good (in which task I personally am lamentably deficient), and to observe the insanity of life with the inevitable bewilderment, but also with all the acuity we can muster. Witnessing it all is painful but necessary (don't ask me why, I just think it is)."-MOS

"We do survive every moment, except the last one. " -JU

Things can be so awful but the stars are out and they are so beautiful. I guess that's enough sometimes. It's all we can ask for in these times which is all the time.

"We seek god now in flowers, in good deeds and the immensities of blue that surround the little scabs of land on which we draw our lives"

That makes me miss John Updike even more. When I read that so much rushes up and it's so much more than I could ever say.

I'll fall from your grace, but I'll never let go of your hand

I never want anyone to have to feel hopeless. Impossible, I know, but I have no control over my wishes.

Singularities? (But not the gravitational kind for once.)

I don't believe in past lives but I sort of do.
Collective consciousness means every life is or past life. Because we're a part of it all. We share the guilt and the pain but also the beauty and the joy. But that's what's hard. They exist together. But we exist together, so maybe we can try to make it all okay.