Sometimes you're thinking too much to sleep properly or even meditate properly.
It's always an unpleasant state and it's one I found myself in tonight.
But still, by some miracle I found myself in a meditative state
and into some sort of sleep.
(If you could call it that.)

Tumbling every which way;
there was no up
nor any down,
but I was headed towards something.

And waves of color and light stretched out from everything that is
or was for that matter (or will be!)
They told me the story that I'll never be able to put into words;
it's the one that is very likely the only one that matters.

And at the beginning of all these prismatic waves
(The ones of all the things that is, or was, or will be for that matter)
There was god; if you can believe it.
The one that keeps the world in motion.

I asked why we were here
but god did not know.

I asked if we had a purpose
I asked if the universe is really real
I asked why there is suffering
I asked how my uncle is doing
I asked if human beings had free will
I asked what is at the bottom of the ocean

I asked all these questions, but god did not know the answers
god sighed with a sadness that only comes from possessing infinity
I knew I was upsetting god, but I couldn't help it
I was a bit upset myself.

So I asked god why it did not know, how it could consider itself god if it knew as little as I did; I asked what sort of god god was.

"Oh, but my dear", god fumbled with words, unsure of how to phrase it all,
"Did you really expect me to know more than you?
I know I have been around for a while, but I've been too busy to figure these sorts of things out.
But I am sorry to disappoint,
I am sorry I am not how you imagined me.
But I know one thing for certain, what I am and where I am,
(god seemed to think the two were one in the same)
All I am is the longing for purpose
not much more than that.
I'm just the space between your electrons
and old friends reunited
and the crashing of waves upon the beach
and the stories to be found in the scars on your body
or the stories to be found anywhere else, for that matter."

Still unsure of what to think of god but now I was shocked as well
I thanked god
and we went off our separate ways
(If you could call it that).